Too Tired to Blog

It doesn't sound like I'm the only one who is going through a difficult transition of their life. For some reason, February sounds like it's been a grueling month for just about everyone I talk to. Lately, I haven't even found the time to catch up on my blog reading...or writing.

I've started a new position at work which has been quite a big transition for me, definitely more than I thought it was going to mean. I've been feeling a lot of pressure with my work and with my time. February is one of our hugest months at work with some of our biggest events going on all in the same week. It's been a lot of early mornings and late nights. Add that to the fact that this is one of Deo's busiest travel seasons so he's pretty gone 60% of the time. Oh ya, and I'm a 7 months pregnant! I feel almost dead to the outside world, especially when Deo is gone, since pretty much I pass out right when I get home and finally get the baby fed and to sleep. Which, by the way, makes me feel so sorry for Trey. He's had some long days at the sitters and I'm not really in the best mood by the time I pick him up and pretty much pray he goes to bed early. It makes me feel like such a horrible mom since during these weeks I literally only get to see him for a few hours of the day. Realizing this helps me make a conscious effort to give him the best 3 hours I can...but it's still a struggle.

I've also been super emotional lately. Call it the hormones, or the stress, but most likely it's a combination of them both. I get very emotional when I'm stressed out anyways, so add that to the emotional roller coaster of having a toddler and a baby on the way, and to put it nicely, I've been kind of a wreck. I'm having those feelings of debating what I'm doing with my life and trying to figure out what is best for my family. My only saving grace is in about 2 months I will be on maternity and hopefully can only focus on my family and not have the stresses of work playing in my head even while I'm home.

In addition to everything else going on in our lives, our sitter told us she will no longer watching kids due to some personal issues. Overall, I really do think things will work out for the best as this is giving us the opportunity to have my sister-in-law way Trey. I have mixed emotions about this. I have reservations with her watching Trey...she is wonderful and I think it is so great he will get to spend this time with his aunt, uncle, and cousins everyday. I'm more worried about how it will or could affect our relationship with them. I don't want anything to come between us as a family and I hope this doesn't. We decided to give it a trial run until I have the new baby (since then I'll be on maternity), and then we can evaluate things then to see if it's working. If not, that give us plenty of time to find other arrangements.

It does break my heart to think of changing things up on Trey because he loves it at his sitters so much. On the weekends all he talks about his Nic-Nic, Sheyanne, 'Lique, and Tink-Tink. He gets so excited when I tell him we're going to see Sheyanne (which then he get a huge grin on his face and even blushes a little). We hope to stay in their lives as Angelique and her family has been such an important part of our lives.

With all the changes and busy-ness of our lives the past few months, it's been hard to keep up with family and friends...and this blog. Hopefully you haven't given up on me yet...I'm still here!

More Excited

I feel guilty for saying this, but I feel almost more excited for our new little bundle of joy to arrive than I felt for our first one. I'm about 3 months out still but I lie in bed at night so anxious with anticipation. I feel like I cannot wait for her to get here.

I think I may feel more excited than before is because I know more now about what to expect (and no I still haven't read the dreaded "What to Expect When your Expecting book). With the first one, I was worried. I was worried if I would be a good mom. I was worried about not knowing what to do. I was worried about labor. I was worried if I could handle the sleepless nights. I was worried about changing gross diapers. I was worried about missing out "child-free" nights. But now, I know that even with all of the struggles and worries and sleepless nights and poopy diapers a baby brings, it does not even compare to the complete happiness she will bring. I know that it is all worth it in the end to see that little person you helped create look up into your eyes and melt your heart. I know the giggles will flood our house. I know the pride I will feel when she rolls over or wobbles up to her two feet for the first time.

Even though I may still dread a little the sound of the breast pump, the crying in the baby monitor at 1am...2am...3am..., the seemingly endless tar-like poopy diapers....I know now...and I cannot wait!

Welcome 2011

Since Ella, Cole and Charlie were all sick for Christmas Eve, we post-poned our celebration until New Year's Eve. It was fun to still get to have a nice dinner and open gifts even after all the hub-bub was over. The kids all had fun playing together. I was amazed that Adam's kids all made it until Midnight, but poor Trey tuckered out at 11:40pm missing the ringing in of 2011.

Charlie, who will already be the big ONE in just a couple weeks.

All the kids playing together.

Ella and Trey snuggle buddies!

Trying to get a picture of the Thompson clan. This is the best one we could get.

At 11:40pm and Trey finally passes out.

Snow Play

On our way home from Deo's parents, we drove through Flagstaff and headed up to Snow Bowl to play in some snow. They had quite a bit so it was good for me to get my snow fix...I haven't seen this much in a while! Trey didn't really like it, he cried the whole time. Although afterwards, he kept talking about "playing in the snow" so maybe he did like it but was just wasn't used to being so cold!

Merry Christmas

What a fabulous Christmas we had this year! It was a nice a long break for all of us. I was so grateful to be able to spend over a week at home with my family. I loved waking up and just hanging out with Deo, Trey and the dogs all day! I actually cried taking Trey to the sitter this morning because it was so nice being home with him...and I think he liked it, too. Although I am a little sad to say that he was excited to go back to the sitter and see "Nic-Nic" (he'd been asking to see his friend for a few days now) but I guess that's a good sign that they treat him well!

We usually do Christmas Eve with my family and Deo's side on xmas day, but my brother and sister-in-law's kiddos ended up being pretty sick so we decided to do our family xmas a day early and head up to his Deo's parent's house a day early. Christmas Eve morning came around and here is Trey being super cute about Santa visiting:



We played it pretty low key this year with Trey's gifts, his "big" present was a Toy Story table and chairs that he loves to color on and play with his new Handy Mandy tools.


After we opened up our gifts, we headed up to Northern AZ (about an hour outside of Flagstaff) and got to wake up xmas morning with his family. He had such a good time just hanging out with family. We stayed up there for a few days, got to play in some snow, and then headed back to Tucson for the remainder of year.